Christmas holidays....

Christmas was a blast! I got awesome things! I got this beautiful watch and sweater from the BFs mom, a wonderful skein of yarn from his sister and bro in law, a great dvd from the BF, and a book from his mum again! It was great! I may have only gotten a few gifts but I loved them all and the thought that was put into them. I did the same, only I got everyone a single gift. Except the BF and his nephews. I got the boys a gift to share and the BF's present had little goodies in it. In his body pillow, there was chocolate and a dvd for him to watch lol. Over all Christmas was great! Hope all my readers had a great one as well.

Just a note, I would really love to hear from the people who have read my blog thus far. It would really mean a lot to me if someone were to tell me what they thought of my words as they come out.

Toodles!

Perhaps we all need to open our eyes?

Perhaps we need to open our eyes and read between the lines?

Just watching some news that isn't really tied to any major network.

Feeling Stupid

I feel like an idiot. I've been letting fears get in the way of my being happy. I've let one person's words worm their way into my head and heart and now I'm pay ing for it in the worst ways possible

The weekend

Things were...interesting this weekend. I offered to watch the BF's nephews, believing it was going to be only for the after noon, imagine my surprise when I find out his sis and her husband were going to be gone all night and I would have the kiddos that long >.< Now, don't take this wrong, if she had asked, I would have said yes, but it did tick me off that she assumed I would be willing. I did wind up watching the kiddos all night and thankfully the BF came over to his mum's after work. Like a respectful man, he slept on the couch, holding guard, while I slept in the spare room and the kiddos slept in their grandma's bed. I did enjoy it and I was glad the BF called his sis and made it clear she has to ask from now on if I'll watch the kiddos over night and not just assume I will.

I am looking forward to X-mas this year. This will be the first year where I think I'll actually feel welcome in a house since before my grandma died. The last few years, each Christmas, no matter where I go or who I am with, even if it's my own family, I've felt like an outsider. I hope to eventually have a holiday where I don't feel like I'm just along for the ride.

I am seriously hating this professor....his requirements are simply ridiculous and overtly demanding. How am I suppose to write a 5 page paper on 2 resources! >.<

Le Sigh

Today has been a Le Sigh day. Woke up with a headache so I stayed in bed for a bit. Next time I regained consciousness it was nearly noon and I had work today. So I did the "Oh crap!" Scramble and headed off for work which as usual when I wake up late or am not feeling well, is a disaster. Got done with work in time to head to the yarn shop and knit a bit. That relaxed me for a while. Then I stopped for food at Denny's and spent time with the ladies there since I am a bit of a regular. It's crazy to think that I am a regular at a Denny's lol, but sadly I am, even if I just stop in for a soda they know me. Once I was done there I headed home and commenced to do my paper work for my job and got onto Facebook where a "Friend" decided that she knew more about my job then I did. Hopefully once she's up at her university I won't have to deal with her pathetic know-it-all shit anymore. It's weird to see how different her and my life have gone in less then a year. As my life has progressed in a more positive way, hers only seems to be getting worse and she seems determined to drag everyone else down with her. She got super pissed that I found someone and have fallen in love and the only prospects she has are her dead beat ex-bfs >.< Just because I have actually tried to make my life better and she hasn't she thinks she has to keep me where I am in life.

I have worked hard to get where I am and I won't let anyone pull me down from it!

School

Got two of my grades back both Bs, now I only have 2 grades left to get. Only one of them is one I need to worry about. I still have two papers to write as well. Thankfully they should be easy ones too. What I'm worried about is the one class since I've struggled so hard in this class. The quizzes were easy but the prof asks such vague and weird questions on the exam it's hard for me to wrap my head around them and give him the answer he wants. It drives me nuts he does that because some of them I can answer in just a few sentences and still cover all he needs, but he docks points because they aren't the length he wants and I've made it very clear I don't like to fill with fluff when I write academic papers.

Presentation

So I gave my presentation today... I hated every second of. Even though the paper was a hit. I was extremely disturbed by my research and so was most of my class. There is something soul killing about researching Child Trafficking around the world. Something very soul stealing indeed. I have found myself more then once wanting to curl up and cry from what I've read, and the photos I've seen. There are things that I have seen in just a short amount of time that I cannot un-see no matter how much I wish I could. I knew child trafficking was bad, but I never realized just how horrific it really was. It isn't just about sex. Given a few of the news articles that I read, children are being mutilated for religious reasons as well and I think that was only second in horrifying to finding out that little innocent baby girls are being brutalized because of a myth that the rape of a virgin can cure AIDs!

To my readers, please please help to fight this horrific tragedy! These innocent little children deserve a chance at a happy childhood!

Sadly this work has affected my sleep. When I close my eyes I see those sad little faces and it makes me want to cry even more. I have 3 finals on Thursday and I need the sleep and yet I can't seem to get it. This is going to be a long couple of days...

Nothing like Recovery...

Nothing like having to recover from an upper respiratory infection while doing presentations for school, studying for 4 finals that are all happening on the same day, trying to hold down my job, and writing 3 papers at once... My life is nuts and yet I am happy about it.

I can't say why, but it seems the more pressure that I have to get things done, the happier I feel in my life. I guess it makes me feel like I matter for some reason... Must consider this....

Sick...more than sick in love

So having a BF with a lot of friends and family has proven dangerous to my health. In one weekend I was exposed to at least one virus and at most 3 and I was unfortunate to catch one >.< I now have the Upper Respiratory Infection from hell caused by a virus. Hello coughing fits the week before finals.....