From the lips of babes

http://www.esquire.com/news-politics/a45719/gay-mormon-community/

She Divorced Me Because I Left Dishes by the Sink

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/matthew-fray/she-divorced-me-i-left-dishes-by-the-sink_b_9055288.html

My fave Etsy shop just updated!!!

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Yea!!!!!

A Challenge

I challenge any "Christian" to show me in the New Testament as those are the words of Christ where he said anything about denying help to the poor, hoarding your wealth, and anything about homosexuality. It must be from the KJV and New Testament only or it is not the words of Christ.

First week

I've started a new job and walked away from my old one. I've also begun law school and man has it been nuts. I've already been given homework. My first assignment has been a lot harder then I thought. This writing assignment has tough, trying to explain one's own moral view is difficult, let alone trying to convince a trained attorney to take your side.  This assignment isn't easy and I am afraid I am sounding like a babbling idiot given I have no idea how to argue this subject.

Work has been fantastic. I've been making quota left and right and have already gone over the quota which makes me very happy.

just a short prayer...

My job interview is in less than 48 hours. I pray to God I get this job. He knows I need this to get my life on the proper track. I pray his will is in the path of mine and this job is my path in this next stage of my life.

Bleh

The last few days have been Bleh to say the least. Between killing the battery of my car to the point I had to replace it, finding out I did indeed have an oil leak still, and finding out my car needed a 400 dollar repair or my alignment was toast, this week has just plain SUCKED. The only good thing has been my BF loved his hat for his bday and I'm trying to knit my first sweater. THat's about it really. It doesn't help I've had a couple of friends decide to fuck their lives up royally by one, getting back with an EX and the other deciding not to dump her stupid alcoholic, pill popping, dead end job having BF's butt >.< Why do I seem to be the only person with a brain around my friends?!

It's funny...

It's funny how life can change so quickly. My boy did indeed come down last night but it was much later then we thought it would be. I had gone into town to hang with a friend of mine at a local pub where she was going to wait for her BF to get off work at 2 AM. Out of the kindness of this man's heart he didn't have an issue with us staying until her BF got off work and then he took me out to a late dinner/ early breakfast. It was wonderful.

I spent all Sunday on cloud nine ^_^ And that cloud got even higher when I saw he had made a comment about last night on his Facebook! I was so stoked!!! We've texted each other a bit but he's working today so it's not easy to text at work, trust me, I know.

Church was great. We had such wonderful lessons and the Linger Longer was awesome Baked Potato for dinner! Great! I did get to listen to talk given by Elder Dallin H. Oaks about tolerance and what it means in the LDS church. For us, it's about not trying to be overly righteous to people who don't share out beliefs but still being able to stand up for what we believe when the time calls for it and that is a truly great thing to hear. Read his words here. I found them to be great and inspiring words. This man is a man of God and a truly faithful servant.

A rather painful realization

So, I've been trying to deny the long held truth that most of the people I call friend really aren't my friend as I am to them. I've looked at the majority of the photos of myself on Facebook and I'm usually the one who takes them or I have to ask someone to take them using my camera and yet I am always snapping photos of them. I've got quite a few of me with friends and many of them have asked me not to tag them in said photos and yet they are tagged like crazy by their "Better looking" friends. It's painful to realize that I'm ok to hang with and take photos with so long as no one knows. Why is it I seem to always be the friend in the shadows or in secret? Why am I the one always behind the camera? What is it about me that is so unattractive that I can't be on other people's pages or tagged with the people who claim to be my friends? Is it because I'm not traditionally thin? Or because I clearly need braces? Or my glasses? What is so ugly about me that no one wants to be a photo with me?

I guess I'm the fat chick who is only good enough to be the secret friend or the one always behind the camera taking the photos. It's really hurtful to know as well.

This ties to another realization that I am only good enough to hang out with at school really. I see my friends doing all this fun stuff and yet I never get invited. And when I ask, they claim "I figured you'd be busy" or "We didn't think you'd have fun" In all reality, they forgot about me and do so until they need me for some reason or another. Then I get to see all these posts about how bored they are and yet never once do I see a text or phone call unless they want me to do the driving, buy them food, or anything else they can get out of me. And yet, when I see said friends, they ask me why I never got in contact with them or where have I been?

I may begin to take some drastic measures to make it clear how displeased I am with this crap and that I won't put up with it anymore. I am tired of being the part-time friend. I am tired of being the one that is put up and taken down off the shelf when it's convenient for everyone else. I am tired of being the one that only is a friend when I can provide something of some kind, no matter how much it may hurt me emotionally.

Don't get me wrong I have a couple of friends who genuinely want to hang out with me and I love them dearly for it and they know who they are. They talk to me often. I even have a few photos with one of my closest friends and that makes me feel very loved and cared for. I hope these friends know how much I love them and how much I cherish their friendship, even though it's hard for me to have time to hang out right now with my current situation.

I hope that one day I make a lot of friends that are like the ones who are my true friends and that my circle of real friends is strong.